8/30/09

rambling: rainy days

i love it when it rains. everything about it. the sound, the smell, the bluish gray of the sky. and especially when i have rainy day music to accompany it. acoustic guitars, pianos, and strings are made for days like today.

its a slow one today, one because the rain but mainly because of last night. remember what i said about limits, well the same applies to drinking. and being with people that have been drinking a decade longer than me, well you get the idea. but i did have fun.

nice to come out of seclusion for awhile.

i do think i have worked out what my next venture is going to be. oh, thats right i never told you. i have launched my work site. [www.minamade.wordpress.com]

its my portfolio but also where i will be posting all the new work i produce. i am going to try for a post a week. so if you are interested, feel free to venture over.

but i am feeling pretty good as of late, which is a weird state for me. i am not used to feeling happy. especially not consistently. this state of calm is making my skin crawl and itch. i try not to think about it though, but i know its coming.

what 'it' is, i'm not sure but its coming for sure. thankfully though, i have truly learned how to roll with the punches, but that don't mean that initial hit doesn't sting. i have just given up on trying to be prepared for it.

eff it.

i don't like doing pointless things and that is truly pointless. i'm on a mission to enjoy my life, in all its ridiculousness.

makes me think of a line from the boosh: [vince and howard sit on a deserted island] h: 'oh see, you've fallen into the trap.' v:'what, the trap of enjoying my life?'

i will adjust i think, even to happiness, because i want to be able to recognize this feeling when i am lucky enough to be in it.

like now. sitting here, eating grits, listening to music, on a rainy day.

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